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Friday, 15 September 2017

Confession Time

The world has a perception of us.  We are assigned a name at birth and we learn early what it is we are supposed to be.  And so, we develop; male, female, daughter, son, parent, spouse, friend, neighbour, co-worker, employee and on and on and on we go.
A few of us make an attempt to be who we really  are but most of us, I think, keep it to ourselves or share it with a select few we feel we can trust with the truth.  Perhaps we are not meant to share the truth.
I am not what is visible to the human eye.  I am two...the public me made of flesh and bone and the real me, older than the universe and younger than tomorrow.  I am made of moonbeams and starlight, inhabiting this flesh and blood shell just long enough to learn my lessons and move on to the next stage...the next level of the game.  I believe we all fall into that category.  I am a dreamer, a poet, a hermit, I am selfish and self centred.  I long to touch the icy froth of the clouds and to tread in the dust of the red planet.  For now I live in this body and I have trained it to do what is expected.
Who are you when you are not being who you are expected to be?

24 comments:

  1. How right you are. I suspect there are more than two of me, and that my other identities don't always get along. And many of them despise the conformist me who is most likely to be on display. And somedays she despises herself.

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    1. We need the conformist....no point in hating her....she's a necessity.

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  2. My other me, the one people rarely see, is silly, risk taking, and a bit of a miser. No, I guess I am cheap no matter the persona. ;-)

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  3. I am the one who goes unseen, unheard, but my presence was felt, i am me but also part of One, a particle that makes the whole, i am unique as myself but also the same as you, i can change, but i dont want to, i am me, myself and I; I am happy in my skin but know that i exist beyond it, I am. Betty

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    1. That was fun, i used to go to sleep worrying about who or what i am as a child and it looks like i am still not sure, multiple personality?!

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    2. Well, it's always nice to have a choice. What will I be today? I like the options.

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  5. Agreed, I don't know what becomes of us as identities, individuals, but I know our influence has no perceptual end. As you say, we are parents, operatives in human society. We tickle electrons under keyboards and ripples result. We exploit the electromagnetic continuum that sustains us. We live and think. When we think rationally, when we make sense, we affect minds in search of reason and logic. That is the process that formed your thoughts and mine, and will form future thought in humanity. Enlightenment is not a single Age, but billions of individual adjustments. Our job is to help with that, and maybe make it look like fun --and, you know, it is.

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    1. I like the idea that our ideas and thoughts and actions will ripple on forever.

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  6. When I'm not being the me the world expects, I am a fire breathing dragon, solving the wrongs of the world. But I am also selfish and solve things in ways that will benefit me, me, me. All in my imagination of course. I can't be that outspoken, it's not the way the world wants me to be.

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    1. It's not wrong to pretend to be what the world wants us to be as long as we know inside ourselves who we really are.

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  7. We are all a rainbow of thoughts and have dreams of the road less traveled. I am an introvert who lives an extrovert's life. We are what works for us.

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    1. Whatever gets us through the 'day to day' eh?

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  8. What a stunning and unexpected post. You caught me on a struggling day, dealing with who am I now that I don't know who I am, except the person who must always be present for a life I am charged with, when I would prefer to join the stars. I am not myself and cannot conceive of the self I was.

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    1. I know you are going through a hard time right now Joanne but rest assured you are still who you were and you always will be. You are just a little lost right now due to circumstances beyond your control but have patience and you will find yourself again. You are worth looking for.

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  9. Wow. Brilliant post. I've often thought about the disconnect between the outer self and the inner self, the way others perceive us and the person we really are. When I was a girl, I was always perceived by others as the happy-go-lucky girl who always had a smile on her face, but in truth, my homelife was... not always something to smile about. None of my friends had any idea.

    Now, I usually come across as being very self-confident, and I can deliver great speeches... but the whole time, I'm quaking in my boots on the inside, and I feel like a fraud when people clap and tell me how "good" it was.

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    1. You need to let yourself believe it WAS good.......because judging from the way you write I can only surmise that your speeches would be of the rare variety that can keep people awake.

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  10. This is a really good question Delores, the real Jimmy sits back and doesn't draw attention to himself, a loner, shy, unsure of himself, and afraid of failing. The Jimmy everyone sees is funny and outgoing but still feels all the other feelings deep inside... Wow that was hard.

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  11. I was afraid everyone would think I was a nut case. Thank you all so much for sharing. I feel less nutty and alone now.

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  12. I have not yet learned what I am supposed to be. Definitely a dreamer.

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    1. It may take several existences for us to finally figure it all out.

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  13. I really like this post, it's certainly one that has got me thinking ... thank you.

    I think we move and change with the times/tides and yes, we (perhaps) eventually finds what works for us.
    We are not all supermen/woman we are only human with our strengths and frailties' ... we just have to figure things out as best we can.

    All the best Jan

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